20111026

Dear Muzhaffar,

I did stupid thing that night that I could never forgive myself and it was never my intention to make you feel jealous. It bothers me that it bothers you. There are so many things I wish I could say to you but I can't. I guess some things are better left unsaid.

I got to know a few guys before you but you're the guy that managed to capture my heart and that's why you're very special. I don't let my guards down easily, Muz. You know that damn well. That day when I waited outside your house for 2 hours made me realised how much I don't matter to you anymore and that was the last straw for me.

Maybe someday you'll love a girl so much just like how much I love you right now and then you'll understand how I feel. I'm not that kind of evil ex that will wish karma will hit you back. You know I'd never do anything to hurt you. I love you so much that it hurts. But eventually I'll have to let go of the things that hurt me cause I want to be happy and enjoying my life without even looking back into the past and thinking about what could have been. So here I am, letting go of our past.

You once said to me that you lost a lot of people you love or people that matters to you this year. I hope that in the future you'll fight for the things and people you love and don't just run away from your problems. Be a man, do the right things.

I wish you all the best in life, Muzhaffar.


xx,
S