Well, I actually used to always feel that way until M came into my life and made me realized all those reasons. He made me love and live again. Though it was kind of hard when he left, I still manage to survive up till now. Having fun and living my life the way I want it. This life used to be a way of proving to him that I can match up with his lifestyle but I got over it. Now, it's just me against the world. Trying to fight for my freedom.
I may not know him that long but he changed my life a lot. The change can be for the better but it can also be for the worst but still, change is change. Change is constant and life is a learning experience. You learn from your mistakes and the changes that you went through.
I couldn't make it this far if it weren't for my bitches. They are always there for me.
xx,
S